Love Changes Everything asked: I have lived in North Carolina for 12 years, and I still haven’t adapted, and I am so sick of this place. No one seems to understand how I feel, but North Carolina is not for me. I studied abroad in Mexico my senior year of college. It was supposed to be an enrichment, a learning experience, but I fell in love with that country, in spite of all the problems that they have down there. It’s the only time in my life that I’ve ever felt a sense of belonging or acceptance. I’m grateful that I lived there, but when I returned to North Carolina, I had a rough time readjusting to North Carolina and I became very, very depressed.
I finished university, and teach Spanish now, and I’m still in North Carolina. I would like to return to Mexico and teach EFL and I’ve researched it (I’m getting certified this spring), but people here are always telling me to forget it, that I’ll never find a job down there… and I feel so discouraged. People here are always telling me that I’m so ungrateful because I don’t love North Carolina… but I just don’t belong here! I don’t want to move to another city… if I were to move to Nebraska, for example, I would have all the same problems I have in North Carolina, except that I would be a million miles away from my family (they mostlly live in NC).
Some people come here for a better life… i get that… but I feel like the best country in the world is subjective… it’s wherever your heart is.
My heart isn’t in North Carolina and never will be.
Part of me misses Mexico… the guys, the fabulous sunshine, and the culture… and longs to return to the life I loved.
ANOTHER part of me… the “crazy” part… wants to go somewhere that I’ve NEVER been before in my life… and ADVENTURE… and sometimes I feel more restless than anything else. I would like to feel or experience something completely new.
I’m not married, never have been, and have no roots… no husband, children, etc.
I would be excited to go live and work in another country that I’ve never visited before, too.
I would like to hear from someone who can help me?
I’m going crazy here… North Carolina is such a dump, and I am so sick of it.
Thanks!
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